stalking never gets anyone anywhere.
they have made it official - must be serious.
i knew it anyway but actually seeing it.
he really loves her.
man,
i
will
not
sleep
well
tonight.
i don't even know whether it is the fact that they are together that really bothers me. i am bothered that i am just replaced. like, i won't be the one he thinks of when he gets old - he will think of her. and i am not the one he thinks about when he is alone - he is thinking of her. i am bothered that i will always think of him.
and also scared that because he can move on and forget - that must mean all our mutual friends will just move on and replace me with her.
i want this to pass. quickly. and a lot less painfully then it is right now.
SERIOUSLY need to get fackin' hot.
i have a tea party on sunday with all my girls.
night,
eph xo
